I stay awake and feel him breathe

I listen to his heartbeat

And when he’s fast asleep I take his thumb and hold it in my fist

Like he’s my daddy and I’m his little girl

And he’ll protect me forever and never leave.

When I have one-night stands

I stay awake for hours and stare into the darkness, as I imagine

That he loves me, and that we are together

And that tonight is just like any other night

Where in the morning we’ll wake up and spend the day together.

When I have a one-night stand,

And I can tell he’s about to fall asleep, I always ask

“Are you going to sleep now?”

And he’ll say something like, “Why? Do you want to do something else?”

And I’ll say No, because I don’t

I just wish that he would hold me.